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Evie is a month old now!  I’d like to say it went fast but it didn’t.  It is however a big blur!

Two weeks ago I felt like something was wrong,  She screamed a lot and only ate for 5 mins at a time.  Clearly this wasn’t right.  I called her ped and they got me in right away.  She was losing weight!  She was down from 6.11 her birthweight to 6.3.  They gave her a bottle of formula, which she sucked right down.  I have to say this broke my heart,  I bawled my eyes out.  My 2 sons never had a bottle, let alone formula.  I felt like such a failure.

We scheldueled an appt with a lactation consultant for later that day.  Again, I felt like a failure.  I mean, I nursed the boys for over a year each.  Why couldn’t I do it this time?  We discovered her mouth and my nipple just weren’t lining up correctly.  What was easy for the boys now became a constant fight with Evie.   She also fell asleep almostimmediately.

The prescription was force her to stay awake and nurse for at least 20 mins on each side, then give her a bottle, then pump more milk.  Luckily I had something like 9  bags of milk in the freezer, not bad for a two week old baby.  Unfortunately the frozen milk ran out and I had lost a lot of my milk so we had to resort to formula for her bottle.  Again, it was hard.  Nothing against mothers who formula feed, I just feel that mommy milk is 100% better.

I felt like a cow.  My days turned into nursing, bottle feeding, pumping and keeping a log of everything, diapers and feedings.  Night and day.  I was burnt out, exhausted and crying a lot.  Luckily, last wed, her weight was up to 6.7!  It was working!  I could tell, she was a happier baby, cooing and awake much more often.  She has another appt this wed and I’m sure she will be at least her birthweight.

It’s been hard, especially when strangers come up to us and tell me how tiny my baby is.  “Yes, thanks, she’s slowly starving because nursing is so difficult, thanks for remining me.”

She’s doing great now, and at most we only have to give her 4oz of forumla a day.  Yesterday it was 2.

So obviously, I haven’t had time for knitting.  I only have one project on the needles, Branching Out.  I’m using a delicious Baby Twist Alpaca.  I’ve managed 6 repeats in… 3 weeks I think?  Sad.  I did get my invite to ravelry!  Haven’t had a chance to do more than sign up though, I’m prettyfbonnet if you want to add me!

Hope you’re all doing well, and thanks for reading, I didn’t mean to disappear!

I hope to post photos soon, I have some fun ones to share, Zane’s chess tourney, Mom’s belly dancing, Mom with her 4 grandkids, Andrew’s “yoga” and Sean’s baby feet tattoo… lots!

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mom6

This is my mommy! 55 years old, a gramma, and an awesome belly dancer.

mom5

She’s been dancing for 5 years. 12 years ago, my dad said if I talked my mom into getting a tattoo he’d pay for mine. Here’s what she got.

mom2

She thinks she is fat, isn’t that amazing? I wish I looked like that now, let alone at 55 and after 3 kids.

mom1

She performs twice a month or so. Here she is showing off for my dad and my husband.

mombw

I have the coolest mom ever.