Well, I really did disappear didn’t I?  Things have been hectic, I never thought I would not have time for the computer.  Let alone knitting.  I haven’t knit in so long I almost forgot how.  Very sad.

This was a few months ago.  She definitely has grown out of her ugly baby stage.  She is crawling and cruising and has no teeth as of yet.  Still nursing!  I’m so happy about that after all the problems we had been having.  She definitely has a personality.  Such a determined strong willed lil thing.  And very very smart.  I forsee lots of struggles with this one.  She’s also the fussiest child I ever met.

This was Father’s Day.  The boys just adore their sister.  They are great helpers, sometimes I don’t know what I would do if they weren’t here to entertain her.

My husband Sean and Zane playing ball.  Sean is such a great stepdad, after all his worrying, it turns out he needn’t have worried at all.  And his is amazingly gentle and careful with Evie.


Zane is incredibly smart.  He reads faster than I do.  He was in the chess club last year and reads at college level.  Not bad for a 9 year old.  He’s really into Star Wars and Doctor Who.  He wants to be a Dalek for Halloween.

Drew played baseball this year.  He’s a very very sensitive boy and still trying to figure out how to get out from under his brother’s shadow.  He’s a comedian and is always telling me random facts from history and animals.

I’d write more but Ms Fussypants is well… fussing.  Hope everyone is well!

Evie is a month old now!  I’d like to say it went fast but it didn’t.  It is however a big blur!

Two weeks ago I felt like something was wrong,  She screamed a lot and only ate for 5 mins at a time.  Clearly this wasn’t right.  I called her ped and they got me in right away.  She was losing weight!  She was down from 6.11 her birthweight to 6.3.  They gave her a bottle of formula, which she sucked right down.  I have to say this broke my heart,  I bawled my eyes out.  My 2 sons never had a bottle, let alone formula.  I felt like such a failure.

We scheldueled an appt with a lactation consultant for later that day.  Again, I felt like a failure.  I mean, I nursed the boys for over a year each.  Why couldn’t I do it this time?  We discovered her mouth and my nipple just weren’t lining up correctly.  What was easy for the boys now became a constant fight with Evie.   She also fell asleep almostimmediately.

The prescription was force her to stay awake and nurse for at least 20 mins on each side, then give her a bottle, then pump more milk.  Luckily I had something like 9  bags of milk in the freezer, not bad for a two week old baby.  Unfortunately the frozen milk ran out and I had lost a lot of my milk so we had to resort to formula for her bottle.  Again, it was hard.  Nothing against mothers who formula feed, I just feel that mommy milk is 100% better.

I felt like a cow.  My days turned into nursing, bottle feeding, pumping and keeping a log of everything, diapers and feedings.  Night and day.  I was burnt out, exhausted and crying a lot.  Luckily, last wed, her weight was up to 6.7!  It was working!  I could tell, she was a happier baby, cooing and awake much more often.  She has another appt this wed and I’m sure she will be at least her birthweight.

It’s been hard, especially when strangers come up to us and tell me how tiny my baby is.  “Yes, thanks, she’s slowly starving because nursing is so difficult, thanks for remining me.”

She’s doing great now, and at most we only have to give her 4oz of forumla a day.  Yesterday it was 2.

So obviously, I haven’t had time for knitting.  I only have one project on the needles, Branching Out.  I’m using a delicious Baby Twist Alpaca.  I’ve managed 6 repeats in… 3 weeks I think?  Sad.  I did get my invite to ravelry!  Haven’t had a chance to do more than sign up though, I’m prettyfbonnet if you want to add me!

Hope you’re all doing well, and thanks for reading, I didn’t mean to disappear!

I hope to post photos soon, I have some fun ones to share, Zane’s chess tourney, Mom’s belly dancing, Mom with her 4 grandkids, Andrew’s “yoga” and Sean’s baby feet tattoo… lots!

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DH spent the weekend making bamboo flutes with the guys.  He deserved a break from diaper duty.

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My mother, a lifelong flute plater, says his flute sounds wonderful.  He is so proud.

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dear boku,

it’s not you, it’s me.

actually, i take that back, it’s totally you.  first you didn’t cooperate with a scarf pattern, then you messed up my “around the world bag”, then to insult me, you totally destroyed Knitty’s beautiful foilage.  I know I really shouldn’t but I’m going to give you one more chance, then I swear I’m kicking you to the curb.  I mean it this time! I just hope all this tension and strain doesn’t break you.

love, me.

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We took evie on her first long walk this weekend.  We took her in the stroller since it was such a long one and Daddy wanted to push her.

evie had her 2 week well baby today.  homebirth = earlier appts evidently.  she  still hasn’t gained her birth weight back (6lbs4ozs today down from 6lbs11oz) but her reflexes were fantastic.  Dr is not at all worried and says she’s so strong and active she may be burning calories faster than she is eating.  He wants me to nurse her only every two hours, no sooner.  Seems counterintuitive to me.  I’ll try it out I guess, but i’d rather feed her when she wants to eat.

Sorry for the messy typing. sometimes it’s hard with a nursing baby on y0ur lap!

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Andrew holds Evie while Zane helps support her head.  They love being big brothers and when they are at their daddy’s house they call to talk to her.

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While it is true Daddy has big feet, Evie is so tiny!

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Thanks to Daddy, Evie gets a head start at being a gamer girl.

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Every little girl needs a Raggedy Ann.

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Grandma Carrie holds Evie while Daddy fills out her baby book.

Overall things are going well, today is Daddy’s first day back at work and he sure looked sad to leave us.  15 minutes after he left Evie rolled over!  Not even two weeks old, what a strong baby!

I promise to have knitting pictures soon!

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Only an hour old and already has daddy wrapped around her little pinkie.

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Evie passes her first test, a hearing test.

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Her footprints.

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Little feet but long legs. She’s bright red cause she’s screaming her head off.

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I don’t remember feeling this tired, just happy.

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The boys came after school to meet their little sister.

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In truth, this is just another chance to show of my Evie.

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But since she came so early, everything I had made for her was way too big! I knit up a premie sized hat real fast. Even the store bought hats were too big.

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Here’s the specs:

Pattern: Twinkle Premie Hat

Needles: size 4

Yarn: sorry, don’t know! A very thin soft yarn that matches one of the few NB outfits that fits her

Mods: Instead of 8 repeats, I only did 5 or 6, I know it says premie hat, but even with just these few repeats taken out it is still a little big.

She was a little camera shy today. Plus her skin is peeling and red still. Someday she will be pretty!

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